A Simple Twist of Fate

As I lay in bed this morning pondering the day and all that needs to get done (laundry, sign Spencer up for Soccer, go to the bank, get some yard work done, and most importantly have some fun with the boys), Spencer walks into my room and crawls up in bed with me. He lays down for a minute and then gets up and leaves to grab his Woobie and returns ready to lie down for a while next to me. We talk about the day some. He really wants to make a sojourn out to Toys R Us of course in addition to the other errands we will run.

I turned on the TV as I was still not quite totally awake yet and decided to see if there was a good kid movie on somewhere. I ran across A Simple Twist of Fate with Steve Martin. I had never seen the movie and I turned it on at the point where he is in the interview to be able to raise little Matilda. I never knew that this movie was about an abandonment. A few minutes of watching, I was able to put the story together. After watching for about 15 minutes, Spencer asked me quietly with his head on my chest all cuddled up with Woobie in one hand and the other draped across my stomach, "Daddy, where is her mommy? (At this point, I didn't want to say that the mommy was dead)" I told him, "Well she just isn't there anymore." His response, " Oh, that is like us." Insert sinking heart here. "Yes, buddy, it is like us."

It is truly amazing how the mind of a five year old can put two and two together like that so quickly. He already knows that it is not normal for a mommy not to be around. He has spent so much time with Robin and Danielle that it has been modeled to him throughout the summer and the last two years since he was abandoned. These are the scars that last a lifetime. It isn't normal. It hurts. It's real.

I will finish watching the movie later as I decided to record it for later. It was time to make some Saturday morning waffles. The day must begin. First stop: the YMCA to sign the little guy up for soccer. He is going to experience all that he can as a child and I am determined to have him look back on his childhood and be able to say that even though mom wasn't around, he still had a blast and enjoyed life. Time to get back to my journey.



My grace is sufficient for you...One Day At A Time!